Communication

Kevin feels better than yesterday and much better than the day before. Not great, but better. It's still looking like he might be in the early stages of some constriction from the scar tissue. We were warned this could be an ongoing problem for a while.

He's going to call the surgeon in Indiana on Monday. Dr. Francis will listen to what Kevin says and react quickly but not over-react to it either.

It's a difficult balance. Kevin knows how his body feels, what feels like part of this new normal thing his doctors talk about and what feels like part of the old problem. On the other hand, having had cancer--and all it's accompanying treatments--creates this reality of not feeling safe in your own body anymore. He can't trust it like he used to and it's a constant ebb and flow to decided what it's signals mean. Is this remnants of a side effect, new cancer or last night's nachos?

For once, I hope Dr. Francis's mission work has not called him overseas. Kevin and I both have great trust in his judgment and reactions and much less confidence in getting similar reactions here in Ohio.

When do you react, when do you not react? It's the cancer patient's nightmare. I suppose it's a communication thing. Between Kevin, his body and his mind. Between us and his doctors. So how do we clear up the static?